Black Water

I always feared the depth of water! I can’t think of a moment were water was something that I might feel excited for. I notice massive  joy and excitement of people I know  for scuba diving, swimming or trying new water activities. It was always fun to watch the enthusiasm for floating, diving and simply jumping of an edge to finally dip themselves in the ice cold water! People always ask me the standard question; how come you can’t stand the water?! My answers were always the same I don’t like it, it doesn’t interest me, I prefer other hobbies..until last summer I decided to simply answer..”I’m not a fish” and laugh right after! I never felt eager for exploding my real thoughts and emotions towards water for people. I never said that I can’t throw myself under water and go find Nemo, never told the tremendous fear I have for holding my breath for enough time for the water to slide against my skin, never been able to imagine going under for the full darkened silence nor the notion of accepting the pressure of the atmosphere below surface. My first and last experience started and ended in the ocean few years back when I finally agreed to break the ice and join the troop for a water cruise. It only took the gravity seconds to throw me in deep without notice. Ever since, my thoughts for that scene are completely blanked from emotions and memory.

I guess after a try I prefer aging with one fear and breaking down others. 

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24 thoughts on “Black Water

  1. Yes, wise to face one’s fear. It’s funny, the things you fear about water are the things I love – the deep, dark silence, the pressure which, when looked at another way, completely supports a floating body. But you know, just because someone loves something doesn’t mean someone else must! Enjoy life, however you can! 🙂

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    1. That is right but yet its not always an easy task to re-try breaking the wall of the same fear. It might take time for others, and other times people would feel relief by avoiding rather than confronting.

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  2. “Fear is a parasite feeding off the host, the host is you. Fear therefore dies if you stop feeding it. Fear will either create you or destroy you. Hiding behind your fear is the person you want to be. Fear is self-imposed, it’s intangible, it only lives in your head. Face your fears and you will find the life you always dreamed of.” – Greg Plitt

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  3. When I was in my early 20s, I taught swimming lessons to women who had a great fear of water. One was so fearful, she couldn’t even take a shower! I slowly slowly walked them into the shallow end, allowing them to feel the pleasure of cool water lapping at their feet. Slowly, slowly, over several weeks, I walked them in until water was up to their ankles, then knees, then waist, then neck. The woman with the greatest fear broke down in tears at that point, thanking me for breaking down her fear inch by inch, and opening up her life, Though I was very young then, her gratitude has stayed with me for years.

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    1. Your patience is tremendous to be honest. Taking those steps slowly for weeks shows great care for other and how a lovely supporter you are! I’m pleased you shared this. I hope others would acknowledge the help you offered to break fears. This could motivate others to give themselves a chance and break the ice! Thank you!

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  4. Reblogged this on dimaakel and commented:
    ” It only took the gravity seconds to throw me in deep without notice. Ever since, my thoughts for that scene are completely blanked from emotions and memory.” I found this writing very understandable since it was only 4 months ago on a family vacation that i dared to dive into the pool and break the water’s surface with my feet. And ill tell you, it was one one hell of a feeling!

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  5. I understand your fear and its intensity. I have no fear of water, but because I barely know how to swim, I have a great fear of drowning. I used to cross a deep lake sitting on two boards tied together, but if I fell off, I would get scared, let the boards go and die.

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    1. We might share mutual fears, but its the form of how to deal with it is what impacts us most. Your fear is also a complex matter but the fact that you dare to get into the water is honestly a big challenge from your part!

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  6. I’ve always been afraid of drowning.. drowning in false emotions. There is a sea.. a sea of sorrows.. they call that sea “love”; and in that sea is drowned souls who have been lied and cheated too. Those poor souls are slowly sinking into an abyss of broken hearts. Nothing the the echoing sounds of their lovers’ lies.. All those tormented souls make my heart tremble.. I wish to never drown in a sea, especially “love”.

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    1. Seems like the notion of drowning is dominating a bit..drowning in water, drowning in love and drowning in school work, etc..
      Fear of water wont allow you to swim but maybe drowning in love would give you the challenge to scuba dive in the sea of love-it could be entertaining not sorrowing.

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  7. I have never been all that fond of swimming. Perhaps with water at 26C or so. You get wet. What for? Showering is a different matter. I don’t really have a fear, just a bit indifferent towards floating around a wet liquid.

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  8. Your fear of water is probably partly atavistic. If you acquaint yourself with water without the expectation to do too much you’ll discover how strong water is and how well it wants to hold you up and float you. I learned to swim by myself in the shallow shores of the Mediterranean, a friendly sea as ever there was. Then I moved on to deeper waters. I never expected to scuba dive, my lungs were never strong enough, swimming is such a pleasure even if one is not doing Olympic stuff. Handle the water at your own comfort level not at the level of others. Then the water will hold you up in its simple embrace and it will love you.
    I had to laugh I because I was reminded of my own my huge fear of the dentist, always much larger than my initial fear of water! Yet the dentist is less dangerous than deep water…I finally got over it by thinking about what is the worst that the dentist can do… he cannot kill me or he/she would go to jail… I dominated me fears by examining all the bad things that could happen and there were not any that made sense rationally so I won a great battle, but I enjoy swimming much better than going to the dentist.
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    1. What a motivational reply! I understand your point however I believe the that not everyone can be daring to such level and try. Maybe taking it slowly would be a great idea to challenge one’s self. But fears must be broken at some point to make the best of everything around you. Thank you so much for your comment.

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